Dr. I told us that Siobhan would have a shorter fuse and have more adverse reactions to conlfict while on the prednisone. She also said that it would be made worse due to the fact that Siobhan wouldn't know or understand why it was happening. So I have to remember that it would really suck to not understand why something is happening to your body.
As adults, we may not always understand why something is breaking down in our body and why we have to take certain medications. But what we do understand is that it's inevitable, a part of life. Right now, I don't understand why I'm taking so long to loose my baby weight. But I also know that I just had my fourth baby, I'm getting older, and not eating as well as I should. And when It take certain medicines that may have a side effect, I may not understand why, but I do that it's highly likely to happen so I anticipate it to a certain degree.
What I can't imagine is having something like that happen when I'm 5 1/2 years old. Think about what it's like to be a 5 1/2 year old. I imagine that Siobhan is somewhat like most kids her age. She's worried about play dates, running through the sprinklers and getting ready for kindergarten. She probably just recently figured out that she has bones and that she's the oldest child. But then you throw into the mix that she now has to take medicine everyday (sometimes twice a day) and those medicines make her a little crazy. But she doesn't know or understand why. She knows that her knees are swollen, that they hurt, and that she has something called 'arthritis' but that's the extent of it. She knows that she has to take a ton of medications and that her prednisone makes her hungry. But the mental and emotional side effects are taking their toll, but she doesn't understand why she's feeling that way.
I must remember all of that, but it's hard. I mean how many times can she take her mattress off her bed for no apparent reason or wake up at a very unsavory hour before I loose it? Because, to be honest, I have lost it a few times and I feel guilty.
No comments:
Post a Comment